Assistance from the Universe

I believe in God and I believe in a loving and giving universe.  I always have and I always will.  I believe that there are always answers which can be found within.  When within has another person's voice living in it, it can not make rational decisions for it's future.  I have lived my entire life having other people make decisions for me. Telling me who I am and who I am not and frankly I believed it.  I've come to the conclusion that as long as I listen to that voice I will never know who I am.


So I have to hit the road. I am a hand embroiderer and blog writer other than that I do not know who I am and I will never find out here.  So if you know who I am and would like to offer a spare room, a couch or a sleeping bag it would be greatly appreciated.  The hand embroiderer will hand embroider in silence anywhere the road takes her and feed herself and do her own laundry.  She will write wonderful blog posts about the generosity of the people who will let her stay with them for a few days or a week or a month(only kidding) while she hand embroiders and contemplates her future. Hopefully I will find a bunch of different locations I can drive to and enough couches that I will not have to burden only one person with my hand embroidering, blogging presence.

I am going through a spiritual awakening so you need not worry in case you have any axes in your home.  I am too proud to ask any one person for help and frankly am sick of crying on the shoulders of my best friends up here who have had to deal with all the voices in my head(including God, my mother and other various angels who have been trying to guide me out of my own personal hell).

So if you haven't decided an asylum is a better location please email me or call me and let me come stay with you with my tail and my hand embroidery trailing behind me.  About the asylum, I have two very good mental health care professionals who have decided a hospitalization is not needed.  I do however need some assistance from some wonderful people I have been lucky enough to get to know who hopefully know me and will realize I will never ask them for help. I do not like to be thought of as a burden or pitiful.  Although when you will not ask people for help while you are sane you certainly become a burden and pitiful when you are not.

I know I need a job and an apartment but I am trying to buy myself some time so that I don't make yet another bad choice on the road of life.  Frankly it is kind of the reason I have ended up begging for a place to stay on my blog.

I'm also putting this on my Facebook page because I'm hoping that my family and my friends who knew me before I became this hand embroidering, blogging mess will have pity on me and I will get to see people whom I love a great deal and would love to visit.

I really do believe in myself and know I will find my answers with the love and assistance of people who love and care about me.  Sometimes you just have to put your faith in god and the universe and pray.  I'm praying.  Thanks for reading.

YAP(Youth Advocate Programs, Inc)

While looking for a job recently,  I sent my resume to YAP, which is short for  Youth Advocate Programs, Inc.  At this particular time in my life I didn't think it would be a good fit, but perhaps in the future I will be more open to it. 

But today as I was trying to figure out a positive topic that we all could agree upon I decided to look up their website which is here(http://yapinc.org/) and share what they do. Here is the description of what they do from their own website.

"Since 1975, Youth Advocate Programs, Inc. (YAP) has offered effective and cost-efficient alternatives to the incarceration or other institutional placement of young people. YAP's programs, which are offered in juveniles' own communities, are family-focused and strength based. "

When we are kids and traumatized we don't make the best decisions for our lives and the ramifications of a bad decision can shape the rest of our lives.  I am so inspired by the idea that this program offers alternatives to the incarceration of a young person that just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time.  Everybody deserves a chance to rehabilitate themselves and heal themselves, especially at a time when that chance can mean the difference between success and failure.

They work with the kids and their families and give them a window into their capabilities and strengths which is also important to a young person.   They provide child welfare, mental health and juvenile justice systems with cost-effective alternatives to residential, correctional and other out-of-home placements. The most positive part of what they provide is that a significant percentage of clients served are those who have been rejected by other service providers, so they are giving these kids and their families a second chance which they might not have had under different circumstances.  They are making a difference to a child, to a community and to the world that child may serve in the future.

They are located in many different states and need workers and donations so please read about their services at their website and applaud the good work they are doing by sending a donation.  Thanks for reading.